One & Only

That one person we love and that one person we hate.
That one person we will argue with but won't ever replace.
That one person we fight for and chase.
That one person that is constantly in and out of our life, but we forgive them each time.
That one person we hope to see our future with.
We all have that one person we make exceptions for,
That one and only.

- Ankita S

Happy Halloween!

October 31st, the day of the dead. Where everyone dresses up as an out of this world creature. I feel like I'm in Halloweentown right now. I think it's so adorable how everyone gets dressed up and everything. Then there's me, my costume back fired. Oh well. HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE :)

Paris - The City of Love.

I have a bucket list of things I want to do and places I want to see before I die. Paris being one of them. I've heard stories, seen movies and pictures. I'm determind to get there, not alone. With my future husband..I hope. Some of the things on my bucket list, I want to cross out by doing it with my one and only. Paris, the city of love. It looks just as beautiful in the day as it does at night. I promised myself that one day I will go there. Just counting down that days until I do.

Karma.

I didn't know that if you loved someone, it was easy to let them go.
I didn't know that if you loved someone, it was easy to be so cold.
I didn't know that if you loved someone, it was okay to push them away and pull them back whenever you needed.
I didn't know that if you loved someone, it was acceptable to be mistreated.
I didn't know that if you loved someone, it was seen as being selfish.
Love is selfish,
I am selfish.
I didn't know until that was all that was left to know,
Karma.

- Ankita S.

It's all pretend..

No one really cares, they're all just pretending. We came into this world alone, we're going to leave this world alone. Might as well be alone too. There might be a few people that do care but the rest are here out of curiosity. This world is a cruel place and we as a society aren't making it any better...

Quote of the day.

"To die will be an awfully big adventure." - Peter Pan

I want to disconnect myself from the world; from reality.

Just for a few days.

Rambling awayy

People walk in and out of my life on a daily basis, at this point it doesn't matter who's in it or not. Because I've learned that at the end of the day, all you have is yourself. I'm grateful for everyone that has stuck by me through thick and thin but I'm also thankful for the one's who left, I wouldn't have realized who my true friends are if they didn't leave. I believe everything happens for a reason, good and bad. There's always a life lesson at the end of every situation. I try to be as optimistic as I can but sometimes that fails. I'm only human, it's okay to be pessimist once in awhile. I've had my head in the clouds a few times until I came crashing down, now I'm scared to even look up. It's interesting what some experiences will do to someone, like hold them back from moving forward at times because they feel haunted.

Forgiveness is not for the weak

At the end of the day, I will always forgive you. I've let go but you keep coming back, I don't know if it's life playing games or if this is how it's supposed to be for you and I. I can live without you but to be honest, I don't want to. I wish I could just run up to you, kiss you and have you sweep me off my feet again..I can't. I'm scared. Scared of losing myself to you, scared of the future. I know I can't just sit here and hope for something to happen, if I want something to happen I've got to do it myself but I've done enough. I've chased you enough. I've reminded you how much you mean to, enough. This time, I want you to show me. Because without any actions, I'm not going to believe a single word you say. But at the end of the day, I will always forgive you..

Starbucks.

Whenever I'm having a lazy day or just in the mood to kick back, cuddle in front of the fireplace and watch a movie....I'm always in need of some Starbucks. My three picks are, a ventie hot chocolate, ventie java chip frap with extra extra chips or a cinnamon dolce latte. Whatever the choice is, it's heaven in my mouth. Sure, it might be pricey but you get what you paid for. The service is extremely nice as well.

Dreadful mornings

I guess I'll be complaining about how much mornings suck! I'm not a morning person, never really been one either. Being anemic doesn't help this situation either. It's not even that I sleep late, I sleep pretty early for a senior but somehow even 8 hours of sleep isn't enough. I have no energy, no motivation to get out of bed; especially on cold fall/winter mornings. I'm tired.

Helplessy hopeful.

I know I should give up. But theres something there, there's always something there that keeps me going; Hope.